New Beginnings

I shaved my head 2 days ago. A symbol of new starts. The last time I did it was just earlier in the year. That was in the face of 3 supplementary papers. Perhaps it's more significant now. I mentioned to the barber I wanted to have Brad Pitt's current look. He goes, "Who the hell is he?" *facepalm*. Of course I must admit I'm nowhere as good looking as said celebrity, but he pulls off a crew cut quite well. And he comes to mind rather quickly.

Estee and I had another good chat about stuff yesterday. I've come to realise that that even someone as beautiful and successful as her would have insecurities. I shouldn't be surprised but I am.

Have since applied for jobs that are in the nature of food delivery and drumroll.....a bouncing castle. I guess surrounding myself with kids is a good thing now. Will remind me of an era where things were much simpler.

I have since found out what a horrible jerk I am to this friend of mine. Fern's her name. I guess I have imposed standards on her while she's just out to have some fun. And who's to judge after what has happened to me. Hope you're reading this, I just wanted to say how sorry I am for treating you that badly without even realising it. Hopefully it's not too late to make amends. Heck, I think I'll buzz her sometime.

My glasses broke. They are suppose to break upon impact. Think Lego. Somehow they managed to break in a place at a certain joint. Just when one has everything figured out huh? Check them out anyway. www.click12.com

I've got all the excitement I need for a long time. Off for my assignments.

The writing's on the wall

I have heaps of people to thank. I reckon it's cos I've decided to come clean with my gambling addiction that's been plaguing me the past few months that I've come to realise how blessed I am with the people that surround me. Here we go...

We can always start with family. That's always a good start. Can't go wrong with them.

My sister is indeed a blessing. Just today I was curled up in fetal position and she just held me. When fear grips a person all you can do is freeze. While there wasn't anything horrendous like a knife-welding psycho in front of me, the debt that I'm facing is rather crippling (5k is rather overwhelming for a student). She prayed for me. I really couldn't ask for a better sister.

My aunt is another such angel. Now, it's the 5th one we're talkin about (have to specify,cos altogether have 4 aunts and 1 uncle.One would've thought Grandpa would've stopped after hitting a boy on the 4th go. I'm glad he didn't) I came bawling to her like the child that I was a couple of days ago. What else was i to do? I guess when one is totally lost that's all one can do. She calmed me down pretty quickly while instilling words of wisdom. What would I do without her?

Mom. At the time of writing, she doesn't know. But she will. I can't bear to break her heart but I guess honesty is always the better policy.

And then there are friends.

Mike Kip and James Lorimar. I called Mike when I realised how much crap I was in. When I came to church James was there and they provided the comfort that I needed. James even wanted to lend me some, no questions asked. Imagine asking no questions while lending money to a gambling addict. Some friends you can't do without.

Wen, Steph and Estee. 3 incredible angels who came along my way. Mentioned in the same vein but incredible in their own way. All of whom I can't thank enough. But let's try anyway....

Wen and I met in church back in Singapore. Even though it was more a mentor/mentee(methinks that's the word) relationship, it soon evolved into something more equal. Her move to Melbourne saw her grew leaps and bounds in sprituality. Over the years I've come to realise that it's her quiet and unassuming prescence that I appreciate. I guess if one were to have a best friend there would be many points in time to appreciate the silent and non-verbal communication.

I played the lost intern in April as previously mentioned and met with Steph. She's what one calls a bubbly beauty. Good fashion sense, as with most melbournians. She knew of my problem back in July and time and time again, I've disappointed her but she's still stuck by me. Gems like her are hard to come by. As random as things are, I'm glad that I met her that Autumn, even though she reminds me of the beginning of Spring.

Last but not least, there's Estee. Met her a couple of years back trying to pick up her friend. Said friend now has a restraining order against me but I'm glad she got to know the real me better. Called her yesterday and we had a nice chat about things. Even offered to help raise the money. A Gem, I swear. If you're reading this babe, I'm serious about that queue number.

Well folks, that's it. Thanks for all the encouragement. I'm looking forward to the new life ahead.